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It's been a long 8 days without her, although it seems like she is just off on vacation. I catch myself looking at her obituary every now and then and even after I read it, it doesn't seem real. The first few days felt like I had lost a limb and had to adjust to life without it. Explaining to my 3 year old son was the most difficult task yet. He knows Gram is no longer "living on this earth" that she is in Heaven and can't see or talk with her. Out of the blue the other day he looked at me with his big brown eyes and said "I miss Gram" me too angel, me too. We have driven by her street a few times running errands and he looks and waves and says, "we miss you Gram." Be still my heart. This woman not only had a huge part in raising me but also my son. She kept him for the first 2 1/2 years of his life. I can't really explain it but I have a strong sense of peace and have, ever since my family and I held her hand as she took her last breathe. I know she is with me, I can feel it! "to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord." One of the most comforting scriptures. I know she is dancing with the angels and rejoicing with the Lord. I am so very blessed to have had this woman in my life for 29 years. I am also blessed that she touched the life of my son and taught and LOVED him so dearly. XOXO

The Hurt & The Healer

Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn't come from being explained
Jesus please don't let this go in vain
You're all I have
All that remains

So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it's all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It's the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all our scars are understood
When mercy takes it's rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say "It's over now"

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take this heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Wake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Wake my heart and take my tears
And find Your glory even here

Her journey..

Her journey has been a long hard battle but she has fought and hasn't given up. Mainly because she is stubborn and hard headed. (That's where I get it from.) Her journey has been filled with love and joy, sadness and happiness, and she will never know how many lives she has touched. Gram. 
Her body is tired and weak and she is ready to go HOME.

I’m Free

Don’t grieve for me now, I’m free
I’m following the path God laid for me.
took His hand when I heard Him call
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I’ve found my peace at the close of day.

If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss
Ah yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow.
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.

My life’s been full, I’ve savored much.
Good friends, good times, a loved one’s touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don’t lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me.
God wanted me now, He set me free.

We meet with her doctors today to see what needs to be done. If you could, please say a prayer for my families strength in this very difficult time and that she not be in any pain as she makes her journey home.

 I love you to the moon